Although I crave organization, my disorganized procrastinating side overrides most times. Don’t get me wrong, I actually hate procrastinating. But it is a choice. I fight myself on things all the time. I weigh the level of completion before I enter into procrastination mode. Seriously. Trash on the street or in my yard, for example. I will just grab it. Now sometimes I will try to pretend like I don’t see it, but my conscience gets the better of me. Tidying up the house… if it’s an easy fix, I will do it. If it’s overwhelming, I put it off. I ask “is this something that will take less than 2 minutes to do?” And if so ,then I do it. Otherwise it’s seen to me as laziness. And I can NOT stand laziness. Detest lazy.
The bigger or harder the effort on something usually causes a push towards procrastination.
Or there is my good intentions vs lack of follow through. For example, my AIP diet that I started. I did ok on it. Until I did REALLY bad on it and gave up a week. Lack of follow through was caused because I procrastinated on reading through my wealth of eBooks I purchased through a discounted bundle. Ok.. let me pause for some inner reflection:
1. I am addicted to bundles. Good intentions. I really do want to go through my homemaking bundle to learn how to make life easier for me. I even started a few of the ideas presented. And enjoy them. It’s just making time to go through them. Procrastinating. Making time for them would totally benefit— no, BLESS actually— me but do I sit down and make time? And that AIP bundle I was referring to. Same thing. I guess it boils down to priorities. Boundaries.
2. I am addicted to exercise videos. I love them. But I have become a library, actually. Lending them out. Actually, that’s where most of them are now. Lent out. I am hoping they are still with my SIL. 🙂 Good intentions. I started them. Get halfway through. And then fizzle out. Never can I seem to make it to habit level. EXCEPT for my treadmill. And maybe because that was a bigger expense and I feel I need to exercise my cost off. But that is a lifesaver. I truly enjoy jumping on there and of course watching Netflix. How else would I have justified watching the entire 5 Seasons of Parenthood (most amazing show ever! God totally used that in my life for some inner reflection and healing. Honestly). Please hurry Season 6!
So anyhow, that is two off the top of my head. I did get upgraded to Paleo and to add nuts and nightshades from my last naturopath visit. But I have been testing coffee one day a week. And what I find is that I can’t fall asleep easily at night and I do feel a dull headache come on. Because I can’t drink coffee black, I have to add half and half at least. I totally miss creamer! That is the whole point of coffee for me. I started adding it one day a week because a) I am not supposed to really drink it and b) but I do want to enjoy life and that to me may be something I can look forward to in the week. Coffee— BUT not just any coffee. I have come to the conclusion that it has to be Batdorf & Bronson. French Press. Otherwise it’s not worth it.
So overall, I am learning about me in this healthy lifestyle journey. Making time for things one step at a time. My biggest time quest is for my kids. Strike while the iron is hot, right? (when they are young and want to hang out with mom and dad). That is of great importance to me. I want to establish that relationship more than anything. Well, of course next to my relationship with Jesus and then my husband. And that will wait until the next post.
Bottom line is, I need to re-boot my AIP diet because I felt the best on it. I need a robot to manage my chores. I actually love simple. And just getting those chores done on a regular basis. Like a robot. No emotions over what has to be done. Just do it.