Here’s to the New Year!

I LOVE thinking about the New Year! A fresh, spanking, new year. Full of exciting possibilities. Hopes. Dreams. (Squeal).

I.am.telling.you.. I LOVE thinking about the fact that a new year is like a whole big Do Over. I know technically I can have a “Do Over” at any time, but this just seems like the most obvious way.

So ideas for 2017? Well, the whole “Give it a Rest” thing worked so well in 2016 that I would like to carry that into the new year. I was thinking that I want to bring back my “Pinterest Self Challenge” that I toyed with at some point last year. Or was it the year before? I digress. Anyhoo- I figure given my mentally deranged love for Pinterest -which has totally been like a friend helping me through some emotional times–I could look at it like this: I pick a category I’ve created. And maybe over the course of a month, I totally dive into that category and actually visit those links and read them and take notes to apply to my life– much like the challenges in the book “Loving My Actual Life” by Alexandra Kuykendall. Totally check it out!

For example, I have a category called “Family” and I have been pinning ideas for how to talk to kids about chores, God, self esteem, sex, etc… just a conglomerate of helpful things I want to ponder in the new year. Since I obviously desire fermenting a wonderful relationship with my family, it seems like a great place to start. These guys are the ones who make it all worth while. Gifts God specifically has given to me. So there you have it. Pick a category, one month at a time. See what works/what doesn’t and make good habits. Then the next month, continue with what worked with the previous one and add another category. That’s kinda the gist of the LMAL book.

 

Here is me … Not so tech savvy

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HA! I did it! The first picture is what happens when you drag a photo from messages. And then I figured it out. But still. This is me… not so tech savvy.

My girl Rylynn and I at our church Christmas party. It was a lot of work to set up the party… but this one was probably my favorite one yet.

So today I am just chillin’. Since I was supposed to have an wellness appt today and it got rescheduled, I am staying in my jammies and listening to Christmas music and recovering from a past two weeks of go go go!

I’m looking forward to actually doing nothing today. Making a point to NOT DO ANY WORK today (well, no “job” work that is). But I am going to make a list of what I need to do today to finalize our own Christmas decor. That’s all for today. Ho Ho Ho!

 

 

My brain thinks faster than I write. And type. Most days.

My brain thinks faster than I physically write. And faster than my fingers can type. Both are frustrating. I feel like I slow myself down in both areas. One, I can’t keep up and then forget what it is I was tryint to say. The other is .. for example, the typo I just left behind ON PURPOSE to demonstrate the 2nd part. Thinking faster than fingers can correct. And faster than autocorrect can figure out

Anyhow… ever since I have been reading the book Loving my actual life: An experiment in relishing what’s in front of me by Alexandra Kuykendall  I see almost everything I do as one of those experiments.

Continue reading “My brain thinks faster than I write. And type. Most days.”

Better than me

Pity party. Party of 1.

Today is my designated writing day. It’s on my calendar. The one I have been trying to use to help me organize my life and enjoy it even.

Going into the day, I had a good feeling about it. Aside from the start of the day that wasn’t part of the normal routine. Taking the kids to CFA because daddy had to go into work early so he couldn’t take them to All Pro Dads this morning at school. Which I could have gone to— mom’s are not discouraged from going— it’s just that the kids opted for going to CFA for chicken mini’s vs. All Pro Dad’s for biscuits.

When I got back home, I had this feeling of dread. So I just prayed. Continue reading “Better than me”

Gift paradigm shift

Just now, I was sipping my iced coffee, eyes closed, trying to recall -without looking- the beauty around me. These Gifts, if you will.

Being “in this moment.”

Me, relaxing in my chair, reading the LMAL book (which I am totally convinced she wrote for me at this season of my life), and soaking in the quiet. My mental list of what is happening: Kombucha started. Chickpeas in the crockpot (dinner). quiet. sunshine. cool room. I am happy.  A gift.  Continue reading “Gift paradigm shift”

All at once

Have you ever had a moment when you realized you actually had some free time and you get so excited you try to do everything you want to do all at once in that small time frame?

Does it start like this?

Setting: You’ve just realized you have 1 hour before you have to start work, getting ready, etc…

Your eyes land on the clock: “Alert! Alert! Free time for 1 hour!”

All at once, every possible idea of what you could do comes rushing into your brain.

Your mind: “OK OK OK….that exercise ball you just bought with Kohl’s cash.. get it out and blow it up. And we can exercise!”

Your body: Done. That was a work out in itself.

Your Mind: “Ok well since that was a workout, maybe we should just grab that cold coffee and head to the relaxing chair for some quiet time.”

Your body: Grabs bible. journal. Pen. Oops… where is the book? It’s in your purse. In the car.

Your mind: “You got to get the book.”

On the way to the car…

Your body ends up in the office/workout/music room and is now sitting at the computer because your mind has hijacked the action of going to the car to get the book.

Your Mind: “Yes! This would make a GREAT blog post for today! How crazy things can get when you don’t have a plan for free time!”

That’s how I ended up here. While I needed to blog, I also need to finish a few more things before my day really needs to start. So the take away here is something I remember learning from another blog somewhere which stated that having a list of things to do when you have free time will help give you direction so you don’t end up trying to do everything all at once and then getting nothing done at all.

Celebrating Birthdays

Celebrating birthdays for our family means taking the week leading up to the actual birth day and giving little special gifts/attention to the birthday person. My husband started this. So for example, my daughter turns 8 on Sunday. So this week, my husband brought home a special chocolate one day, a stuffed animal the next (husband, have you seen the other 56 “stuffies” she has?), a rose on another day, and one day she and I went to the movies…and had popcorn and a drink (big treat). Continue reading “Celebrating Birthdays”

Ode to Joy

What brings you joy? Just name like 3 things that bring some level of happiness to your life. Go. Anything coming to your mind?

Well… share them if you will. Because I am going to share mine. For starters, Pinterest. It brings me joy. When “Pintresting” first materialized, I avoided it. Like the plague.

But I am ADDICTED. Continue reading “Ode to Joy”

“But everyone else is doing it?!”

Classic childhood expression. Am I right? Who hasn’t a) said that or b) heard that?

And then the natural classic response “well, if everyone was jumping off of a bridge, would you?”

So why bring this up? Well, it’s what pops into my Brain when I think about how everyone else in the world with health issues seems to be getting their stuff together and blogging their way to health. “Dime a dozen” and “Trending Now” also pop into my brain when I think about the wave of gluten free posts and recipes and thyroid issues and … well you get the idea. (ahem…did you know that WATER is gluten free? Did we REALLY need a label to tell us that?).

No. Not downplaying the issue here. I am just identifying with this thought process: I feel weak when it comes to follow through in this life goal.

Why can’t I be diligent and journal my road to health so “all the world wide web can read like EVERYONE ELSE?” Continue reading ““But everyone else is doing it?!””

Give it a rest.

I am on the road to recovery. Why do I say that when I just weighed in at the highest I have been since I started losing weight healthily 1 year ago? And I have been eating everything on my “not good for you” list? And feeling the pain of eating it all? Why do I say that when I feel like I have been very wishy washy lately in my quest for quiet time? And getting angry at myself for falling back in to my sailor talk?

I say that because I know that God holds me in the palm of his hand. And that it will take a minute by minute approach sometimes to get better. I want to get better. I will get better. Everyone’s journey is different. So why should I get mad at myself when I don’t fit a mold?

My thoughts for today land on re-structuring my time. My life. Recently, a friend at church – who I really admire – told me she was restructuring some things with her business and life. She told of adding a monthly massage time and other things to replenish her soul That just spoke hope into me. If she is taking taking time for herself, why shouldn’t I? God has been whispering this over me for a little while. I say whisper because I was only half paying attention. I was listening to the voice of self with it’s self hatred talk of “just eat that — you know it will not make you feel good.. but just eat it because you don’t like yourself. Remember?”  Yep. That is actually a voice in my head that I thought was over but apparently have let back in.

I recently had a dream where this guy would not get out of our car. I was getting angry and said “in the name of Jesus, Go!” But he wouldn’t.  I kept hearing “squatters rights” and I woke up thinking “have I let the enemy get a foothold of something?” I do believe it has something to do with the control of food. And how I sometimes say “I am going to finish this eating lifestyle and see it through” but the back of my mind keeps saying “no you won’t. You will end up back where you started.”

Jesus help me in my unbelief. Kick that guy out of the car!!!