“So many high hopes I had for myself by this age.” That is what I obviously just typed. But is it true? I don’t recall ever really sitting down and stating out life goals. Sure, my passion planner was a great tool that I used to start getting ideas on paper. A wonderful place to get excited about the possibility of mapping out my future.
But as all things seem to go for me, I stopped with the goal planning mid-Jan and just started listing out each day. Now, don’t get me wrong. That is exactly what you do in a planner. At the basic level that is. BUT the whole idea about planning is to learn how to take your dreams into goals and then into action steps. And there it is folks. The word I believe I ultimately have problems with. The word that perhaps is my demise for not fully engaging in the first line of this entry.
As a 9 (with a strong 6) on the Enneagram, (if you believe in that personality type of revealing – which I do), it’s only logical that I would have trouble with this idea of “dreaming.”
All this to say is that I came to this entry to honestly share that I have come to the conclusion that perhaps my dream if I dare use that word, of becoming a Writer, was really just a “blip” on my screen of life. Perhaps it really wasn’t a dream at all. “Mere longing?”
However, if my dream -my real desire for what I want to do with my life- was to really become a writer, then my daily action steps written in my planner would reflect that more. Don’t you think?
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Sounds funny outloud, “I have a big But”.. because it sounds like I am referring to my backside. BUT, I am not. The inference is actually on things that hold me back. The “I want to do (enter something big here) with my life, BUT…”
It’s the BUT word that gets me. I have an intention to do something, BUT I am afraid. or nervous. Or not emotionally ready. Or I don’t have what I think is required.
Most famous: I want to exercise, BUT…
Wait, I am sitting here typing and I have time to do something right now… BRB.
For a moment, I envisioned myself as a successful writer — coffee cup in hand, headed over to the laptop to pound the keys with a witty short story or two.
In reality, I will settle for my “j-og”… which is a combo of journal/blogging since right now I am the only person reading this.
Anyhow, I am visualizing myself organized. Confident. Ready to take on the day. Ideas are swimming in my head and I have to put them somewhere or I will go crazy. Continue reading “I’ve got to put this somewhere”
Last month it was Pinterest. Well, Nov & December and into the beginning of January.. BUT NOW it is watching food prep videos. Yep. Meal planning videos usually done by those who are exercising or looking to keep food costs down and meal’s within health goals.
This year is going to be GREAT!
Looking forward to doing a year of ME TIME! Sounds a little selfish, I know. But hear me out. ME TIME is for figuring out Who God Made me to be. Who am I? What do I like? For so long I feel like I have just been existing. Doing what i think “should be done.” Continue reading “I’ve got a feeling”
New year. New time to try blogging again. Right?
It’s always tough to get over jet lag. But once you are home, it sometimes works in your favor because you are up early and feeling like you can get stuff done. Like unpack. And do laundry. Or catch up on blogging.
2014 saw me Pinterest”ing” more. I am addicted. I have decided to try to accomplish one Pinterest item a day. Or a week. Realistic goal. Lots of healthy food entries posted and that will be my priority this year. Continue reading “Just Blog it”
Today I thought it would be nice to blog about a few things I want to blog about 🙂
For starters, it would be nice to document some changes I would like to make:
Continue reading “Before I forget…”
In my mind, I saw myself flittering away at the keyboard — effortlessly broadcasting streams of thought as they popped in my head. Capturing the moment. Humorously.
Screeeech! (enter crickets). Nothing is coming to my head… except “that’s a typo. Fix. it.”
Why did I want to blog again? (I know that sounded like I “blogged” before.)
It all started when I read something on the 750 words site about just getting thoughts down on paper –aka, the keyboard… first thing. fresh. just type. That is the starter kit recipe for writing, right? Wrong.
At least I don’t think so. I mean, I am focusing more on “will anyone read this” and “do I want to just type and not worry about spelling at first and then go back and proof because that is what is slowing me down.” (Type a word, backspace backspace.)
The last time I was blogging was to document my brief business independence. My Mary Kay journey. At least the journey lasted longer than the blog 🙂 But nonetheless, it’s time for a blog “makeover”— pun totally Intended.
So I am going to stop here. Because I can. And regain speed tomorrow 🙂