Aprilabe

I guess times have changed from writing in a little book with a tiny heart shaped lock to a blog with security settings for friends only.

I had a diary once. My mom and I read through it (though I don’t think it was her first time :)  not too long ago and about died laughing at a) the huge gaps between days and b) the references to “I hate my mother but I love Mrs. Baker” — My 6th grade math teacher. What was that about? I hate math. But I remember Mrs. Baker. She was awesome. I remember being embarrased to give her the note from my father after he helped (heh) me with my homework. The notes went something like this “Dear Mrs Baker, the answers in the back of the book to problem #’s 1, 2, 3 (examples) are wrong.” And then would follow a few lines of how that problems should have been constructed.

I think I was the teachers pet though. Go figure.

Anyhow, that’s enough for today, Diary.

I am tired of feeling 12.

TTFN!

April

Have you ever had so many thoughts going around your head that you thought it was going to explode any minute now? Or had one thought play over and over so much you thought your head would implode? Welcome to my world. (Who coined that phrase, anyhow? Mr. Rogers?) But I digress.

I went to the bookstore today. I love books. I love reading. Bookstores have a love/hate relationship with my “self”. More like the Mother Roller coaster ride of all times. They make me happy and excited at all the possibilities to devote my time too. And they make me hate my self at the same time, thinking “I will NEVER get to all these books! This book tells me I should be doing this and that with my 3 yr old by now and I haven’t even done the “this”. Headache forming. Self worth shrinking. Then I see a book on time management and I think “oh, I could do that suggestion.” And hope struggles to climb the ladder out of despair. The deep abyss I have let myself wind down in to.

I have to laugh at myself. A good, hearty laugh. And then a smirk. It’s funny how you can get so excited, energized even, over the things that you “want to do” and then in the next minute, the pieces of the flesh colored balloon head fall to the ground over the things you “should do.”

Then I got an idea. “Why don’t I pick a book and blog on it?” You know. Buy XYZ book and read it and follow it and blog on it…oh yeah. Wasn’t that a movie called “Julie/Julia” or something like that? I swear I had the idea first.

Completely

–adjective

1. having all parts or elements; lacking nothing; whole; entire; full: a complete set of Mark Twain’s writings.

2. finished; ended; concluded: a complete orbit.

3. having all the required or customary characteristics, skills, or the like; consummate; perfect in kind or quality: a complete scholar.

4. thorough; entire; total; undivided, uncompromised, or unmodified: a complete victory; a complete mess.

(taken from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/completely)

My thoughts: Be entirely humble. Total. Undivided in humbleness. Don’t compromise being humble. Consumed humble. Lack nothing to be humble. Have all parts of humble.

Could you please remember to  take the books that are due today back to the library? Oh, and pick up the books that they have on hold. And please remember to check the weather for this week. And call the bug guy. HMM.. there was something else. Can you remember that too?

Kindly,

April

http://www.southernsavers.com/2009/12/2010-sunday-coupon-insert-schedule/

Never stop being amazed…at what God is doing in your life. When God “winks” at you, give back that amazement.

I’ve been watching Joyce Meyer’s Relentless series on podcast. She was talking about how often times we lose the amazement of what God is doing in our lives and I believe this will lead to some dry areas of our lives. She mentions paying attention to the “winks” God gives. You know, when something happens in your life when you know it was just from God. Giving you a little wink saying “I see you. I love you.”  Ex: The other day I lost something very important and was getting mad at myself. Very upset. Well, a little while later, my daughter came up to my husband holding the very thing I had lost. Relief! (wink).  Or when you are looking up at the sky and you see a shooting star. (wink). Or when you happen to go by your favorite product at the grocery store and it’s on sale and there is a coupon! ha (wink). I hope to go on an on…just not in this post.

I think the above phrase is my motto, apparently. I seem to do things when I get around to them (and come on, who doesn’t). Then I justify my tardiness as “better late than never!” Don’t get me wrong. This phrase definitely has it’s place at times. Like: “I just put that diaper on my kid” or “I just fed my kid” or “I just completed a 10K!”

 But putting away laundry that has been sitting on the couch, hidden in the ‘office’ of our house….that’s just laziness. Oh well. Better late than never! ugh.

You are great and I love you! Thanks for the snacks

I felt like writing something at this moment, so I flipped open my laptop, got write to my post, and this is all I have so far.

Actually, I am supposed to be doing several things at this time and need to end this.

At least I got down “just a little something” for today!

If there is one thing I lack in life…(heh, I wish it was just ONE)… it is organization. and follow thru. and consistency…and ..you get the idea.

Kayle is now 2 years old — well, he will be tomorrow officially — and I have not really kept up with the baby book. Haven’t kept up with blogging about what has been going on in his life. Don’t quite know why both kids even have their own sites (…um, husband?)

anyhow, I think my new philosphy is going to be “Get Over It.” This really started from when I put on my bathing suit and realized it did not hide the fact that I still have weight to lose. Darn it! I was going to change or put a shirt over myself and thought “GET OVER IT!  Obviously I need to lose weight and nothing is going to hide that. Get over yourself.”

Instead of getting hung up on what I should be doing or should have already been doing, I am just going to stop making excuses and START doing! 

So today. I am bloggin. I made a hair appt for Kayle. I went and looked at an area we are interested in moving to. I called the Realtor. I started to look up doctor information on our insurance page..and then the kids (both) got up.

I have a load of laundry in the dryer, one in the wash, and one to be folded. Marathon “movie/laundry” night. Mandatory attendance. Wish I could skip that.

Existing. That is what I have been doing inlife. Just existing. That word doesn’t even look right. Weird!

Anyhow, I am going to exit :0) here and start doing something else.

I like being productive.

It makes me feel happy.