Inside my chest is like a heaviness. It happens a lot. When it does, I have to ask myself “what is hanging over my head today.” But today it’s more like a feeling of failure before I even get “out of the gate,” so to speak. I’ve been researching foods to eat/avoid for my hypothyroid. Something I should have done when I first got the diagnosis 7 yrs ago. But since “it’s common” and “just take this pill for the rest of your life” seemed like new lifestyle, I just took that advice from the doc and left. Even when I asked my Endocrinologist which foods should I avoid/eat to help me feel better, I was met with a response that “food has no bearings on an auto-immune deficiency.” (my paraphrase). I just couldn’t swallow that. I know our bodies were amazingly designed and food affects it and how it reacts. So I stopped seeing that Endocrinologist and stayed with my internal medicine doc. And did fine until 2 yrs ago when I gained 15 lbs in 1 yr. That was unacceptable.
Anyhow, now I am trying to eat more whole foods and enjoying them…and I am reading that some of those whole foods I love aggravate thyroid symptoms. Like my FAVORITE ones. I just felt like my balloon just deflated.
I went to bed.
And woke up with the heaviness.
Here ya go, God. Here is today’s heaviness. Coupled with the fact that my taxes are still hanging over my head. I need to see Victory over this health issue. So I am asking the Lord for wisdom.