At times, I almost can’t take it. An overwhelmed feeling that something bigger than myself is about to happen to me and I can’t even take it. Such great anticipation. My facial expressions shift from puzzlement to excitement to fear and then circles back. What I am talking about is the season of life I am in. For example, we are homeschooling for the first time, so with that, comes lots of planning. And reading. And internet searching, printing, highlighting and hole punching. Two kids in two different grade levels for a homeschooling newbie often enlists an initial response of deer-in-headlights. Fear of “messing up my kids and making them stupid” rolls across my head like digital message boards.
But nonetheless, this thought propels me forward to use my tools (planners, highlighters, etc) in ways that unlock the inner organizer in me. And. I. Love. IT! Each planning session ignites a spark of excitement regarding organizing that I could never have imagined. Specifically, I’m overwhelmed with a feeling of amazement that God has called me to this. And he’s got me.
Also in this season, my neighbor and I have a podcast. Released episodes: 20. However, we’ve recorded 2 more and are busy researching, reading, recording and yes, more planning. Are you picking up on a theme here? It’s like God is
weaving a tapestry, (sorry, that sounded cheesy), making it obvious what things make me happy these days. I have been so excited during this past month even though we took a break from releasing so we could regroup, record, vision cast, etc. Enter more feelings of overwhelmed goodness.
So my take away is this: I’m loving my season of self-discovery.